Prologue
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My name is John Vladimir Linatoc. JV Lin (javelin) for short. I have a deep fascination for weird coincidences, and I label them as phenomenon. Please remember my shortened name as you read this spooky story, or so I tease. And yes, I believe in magic.A person named Regina Espiritu is what most people call my girlfriend. She has a deep fascination with weird people... like me. I'm sorry, that doesn't concern you at all, but the name should. It's imperative to this conception of my creativity based from my real life experience on the 2nd of July, 14 years after the year 2000.
The first of many chapters
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It was a long, long time ago that I had a marvelous coincidence. The rest were just in its basic sense, coincidence.Year 2008. I was one of the silly fools who got hooked by Jim Carry's movie, the Number 23. A stupid obsession to the esoteric number. I was young, and maybe a bit stupid. It was that stupidity that gave birth to one of my mathematical theorems, or quackery if you will say. I'm proud to say that I have grown into a very idealistic, sensible, ambitious, stupid person that I am today.
If you try to divide the logarithm of 32 (23 reverse) by the logarithm of 23 on a scientific calculator, you get a gibberish response except on numeric terms-- 1.105323647. But when you try to add all those digits, a concrete, yet wonderful, and probably a scary number will prompt to your face. Do the math. Yes, it is 23 in reverse.
You are probably thinking that I'm being such a Carl Jung now, a man of reason, of science, but also an open minded to the magical. Well, remembering it just put a smile on my face. We people chose what miracles we believe in. I happen to subscribe to my own.
The chapter after the first
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But today was different. Today was the day I looked up to universe and like a madman, I pointed at it and say, "You silly fool."As I was wandering around Batasan Hills area to look for a person for interview, this surprised me when I arrive at the place.
When I saw it, I was simply amused. It seems like universe is kind of reminding me that someone out there is thinking of me while I was out here being sweaty under the sun. It was as if some person who wants to be remembered deliberately built her own Ciudad and put her name on it so I can see it on one random afternoon. Stuff like this can never miss out to put a smile on your face.
As I've entered the subdivision, I asked the guard on desk where can I find the person I'm looking for. He told me there is no one of that last name on this subdivision. It made me sad, because if it's nonexistent, then I have no reason of lurking around the place--prowl her jungle. With a camera hanged around my neck, I am like a gumshoe on a different scene of the crime.
There's always a number three to things chapter
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It captured my attention that from my standpoint, the gate, I saw these two houses who are practically neighbors, if only there isn't a salient concentration of grasses in between. I wonder if these two households are good friends at all. If not, would it be different without this soulless stretch of land?
Four slices makes a cake round chapter
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And it's not because I have this deep concern for this job, i do, but I just want to stamp my feet all over the place and leave tiny pebbles of dust I acquired the entire day. If those dust represents that I was there, then my satiety is met.
"Manong, baka po may rekord kayo ng mga taong tumira dati rito?" I asked. The eager guard who visibly showed me that he wants to help, let me inside his small office. "Papatayin kita Insyong, ibalik mo sa akin si Ikang!" those were the words I remember hearing from that tiny radio inside the guard's haven, or probably the words I hallucinated in my head. That time, an image had successfully stolen my speech. What kind of map of plotted last names of people living on a subdivision could make me feel as bewitched as this? Probably this kind...
So, on a subdivision called Ciudad Regina, Regina, let that sink in for a moment, the very first house upon entering had to be owned by a family called Espirito. Espirito! Then, the next house, as if universe isn't contented on his prank, had to be owned by the Lins. And to add flavor to this phenomenon, according to universe, there had to be fucking meadow in between. Why is that so important? Well, Regina and I are, as google calculated, are 7332 miles apart--your so-called long distance relationship, I call it modern love story.
On this parallel universe called Ciudad Regina, which actually exist, there is a life-size model of our little magnificent encounter; the Espiritos at first sight, the Lin residence right after, and the ugly grasses that represents the distance between.
Phenomenal.
Epilogue
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Aren't we all sweet tooth? We love sugar-coating things.
Today, I found out that if you use a calculator that can display more than 10 digits, those Casio fx-whatever series six years ago didn't, you'd find 1.10532364729, 29 was added. Twelve digit display. If you add that up, that's nowhere near 23 reverse. Yes, the bubble was popped. But during that time until yesterday, I know it was real. The magic was there. I may have known the trick, but I was still mystified.
Today, I saw a subdivision with the same name as an important woman in my life, a house inside that subdivision owned by a family name the same as her's, a neighboring house owned by someone that is the same as my shortened name, and finally an annoyingly existing piece of unmanned territory with aesthetically doomed grasses that sort of mocks what distance we have for each other.
But I'm not a Lin. I don't have a chinese heritage. Heck, my family name don't even fall under the casual Hispanic originating names the Kastillan's gave the early filipino families because probably we were the ones who refused to be part of their "Communidades bajo el sonida de la campana", or "Communities Under the Sound of Bell".
But I love using Lin. Sometimes she calls me with a secret cheesy word plus Lin. My twitter goes by the phrase 'jvlinsanity'. Needless to say, the magic can be justified. But was it perfect? No. But the magic was there. It is in my heart. It is in people's hearts who felt it. No matter what disenchantment and aridity people will throw upon you. You javelin throw them back all those feelings you felt from the magic you chose to believe. Like I said, we chose what miracles we believe in.
Misplaced Acknowledgement
(so people who doesn't want to read can ignore)
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"I would love to be like Becca. I want to become someone who inspires others because she is passionate about her work. Someday, I’d like to have that effect on my future husband, as well as on the people around us"
You, if there is one magic I cannot ever question. That is the fact that everyday you fuel my steampunked passion, yes that's how transcendent it goes, the diesel versus steam chemical laws are ignored. In a sense, what you do to me, it's alchemy.
There's gotta be some reason why I am under a nerdy alert four month program that I call "Project Dream Girl" with goals of improving my life while waiting for this one person. There's gotta be some reason why I keep writing stuff like this to awaken every veins where my passion flows. There's gotta be some reason why I am stress-stricken with life's daily crapping and I am its perfect toilet, yet, I still move like a cockroach without a head. There's gotta be some reason why I am picturing a brighter future where I'd be a person smiling as the sun exits on tit looking mountains. There's gotta be some reason where there is an image of myself helping other people as motives of my advocacies, or an image of myself not resenting after not achieving them. Or finally, a reason why I am simply just happy right now. There's gotta be... you.
And that is only because of all the passionate things you do as well. So keep doing what you do, keep exploring what you probably want to do, and lastly have the heart sustaining, adding, or forgetting them. Because under all the silver linings this life has to offer, through our alchemy, they all will turn into beautiful golden things.
You may not be seeing me looking the way Jay looked at Becca right now, because obviously, we're not seeing each other. But when the time comes I will make you believe that you are my Becca. Even better. Because you are what you are.
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